Eff, it’s been a hard year for me. EFF. Like, the hardest year since ever. How about you? You hanging? I’m taking this Fall one day at a time, one foot in front of the other, sometimes even one half hour at a time.
But I don’t want to get off to a bad start on this post, so let’s start off by watching Jimmy Fallon and will.i.am break it down in the best video to hit 2014 Ew, ew!
I love Jimmy Fallon, for realsies. The man can do no wrong, and he’s a constant spotlight of happy in my nighttime routine. His SHOW I mean, his show. Jeez!
I haven’t been updating Petit Elefant a whole lot lately, and I don’t want you to think I’ve abandoned you altogether. I really haven’t. In fact, I spend my days composing blog posts in my head while I go about my life. I have a lot of things to say to you guys, but I can’t get them out of my head and onto the page. I’m paralyzed with fear and sadness, leftover emotions from this hard, hard, horrible year I’m in the middle of living.
In August I shared a little of what’s been going on with my daughter Sofie health wise in a post for the UN Foundation’s Shot@Life campaign. Not only were your comments so kind and encouraging and uplifting, but combined with the efforts of other Shot@Life Fellows, you helped raise over 80,000 vaccines. That’s EIGHTY THOUSAND, in case you didn’t catch it. Thank you from the bottom of my ever-living heart. The children you helped save with vaccines are very real.
Anyway, Sofie has had the worst year of her young life and in the midst of it you guys did something awesome. It was one of the few bright spots in 2014 for our family. I’ve been asked by my sweet girl to stop talking about it. She’s tired of hearing about herself and wants some privacy, so I won’t get into details. The gist of it is that I’ve been ripped to shreds emotionally (and physically, frankly) this year, in a way I’ve never experienced before. I’ve dealt with some fairly horrible stuff in my life, but I’ve never quite made it to the bottom. I can tell you after the last 10 months, I’ve been to the bottom and it’s bad. I’m totally obliterated and literally taking it one day to the next.
I haven’t posted much, but plan to as I move forward past this heartbreak. Thank you for being such a great community. Thank you for your kindness and your loyalty and for spending a part of your day on Petit Elefant. It means the world to me.